Michael Chase says:
so I met this guy
Michael Chase says:
his name is matthew
Zena says:
ok
Michael Chase says:
we’ve only known each other for like 4 days, but have exchanged at least 500 text messages
Michael Chase says:
and messed around already
Michael Chase says:
not all the way
Michael Chase says:
it was so nice, it was like 3 hours
Michael Chase says:
of kissing and stuff
Michael Chase says:
I hadn’t done that in 6 months
Michael Chase says:
anyway, he’s moving in August to go to grad school, so he doesn’t want to be my boyfriend…
Michael Chase says:
but I know he cares about me, he is just putting up this wall
Michael Chase says:
last night he asked me if he should break it off now because he doesn’t want to break my heart
Michael Chase says:
and he said he knows I’m special but he doesn’t want a bf, and would only be sticking around for the “play”
Michael Chase says:
ok
Michael Chase says:
I know I’m writing a novella
Michael Chase says:
sorry
Zena says:
its ok
Zena says:
ok… continue
Michael Chase says:
so he just kept asking me what he should do?
Michael Chase says:
he said it was a lose-lose situation
Michael Chase says:
if he stuck around he thinks I will hurt more when he moves, but he doesn’t want to break it off either
Zena says:
how do you feel?
Michael Chase says:
sad… I’ve shed a tear over this
Michael Chase says:
I don’t know why I got attached so quickly
Michael Chase says:
I honestly don’t
Michael Chase says:
it doesn’t happen often
Michael Chase says:
like this is the 3rd time
Michael Chase says:
in my life
Zena says:
…but how do you feel? what is your heart telling you to do?
Zena says:
and what is your adult brain telling you to do?
Michael Chase says:
I want to keep seeing him, I don’t care if it breaks when he moves
Michael Chase says:
my heart that is
Zena says:
then do that.
Zena says:
and deal with your heart breaking later.
Zena says:
we only live one life michael.
Michael Chase says:
I know
February 5, 2009
A Personal Transcript
March 28, 2008
A Wonderful Life
Is the title of a dreamy trance song by Carl Craig, on an album called “Back to Mine”, by Everything But The Girl (EBTG). I remember when I bought the album I was initially disappointed, because I thought it was going to be music by EBTG, but it turned out to be a compilation of music they love, hence the album title. However, my disappointment quickly subsided when I heard the music. It’s wonderful to hear the music a band you like listens to themselves, especially when you end up loving it too…
There are so many personal things in my life that I wouldn’t mind sharing with whomever takes the time to read this, but I’m not sure yet if I want to keep this a strictly “professional” blog.
February 27, 2008
Hello world!
The auto-generated title of this entry is appropriate for several reasons. First, I’ve just started a new, exciting chapter of my life in Virginia Beach, Virginia. Second, I’m a programmer, and “Hello world!” is typically the first program you write when learning a new programming language. Third, this is my first blog.
So, gleefully I proclaim… Hello world!